So as of late my best friend got engaged, to her boyfriend of seven years. It was expected and was very sweet. He told me two days before he did it. I'm so embarrassed to admit this but I'm jealous. It seems as if things are happening everywhere around me. I had a party for my parents this weekend and two of my cousins are pregnant with their second child. My guy and I are very happy, we bought a house together over a year ago now and have three wonderful animals together. I thought I'd never be 'that girl' who craved to get married so badly but here I am. I don't know why I'm letting things get to me so much lately about where I should be in my life, but I do think a bit of it was my passing 24th birthday. It sounds so silly that I'm hitting a mid-life crisis at 24 but if you had at least 15 weddings pass in the last 4 months of people you knew, I think you'd feel it too. Two women at school just told me they were pregnant today due in May. My SO and I talked about trying at the end of the summer (therefore being due in May), but he's asked me to wait until we get married to start trying now and I respect his wishes. It's not something that I thought was important to me but I guess I'm changing my mind. My cousin just messaged me to say it was a boy, and my other (other)cousin who is my age brought her new son over last Saturday too. I guess it's just baby fever, and marriage fever (?) too I guess. It sounds so petty, and a silly rant but I just have this cruddy feeling that I wanted to shake off of me for a bit. I think it's just this inner maternal craving that is ready, but my outside circumstances just aren't yet... How many of you have ran into feelings like this...?