This has been a rough year for me, and it's been compounded by the fact that I have a number of students who have just decided that they hate my class or hate me. It started since day one with students deciding that early on that they didn't like me or my class. I laid out my expectations and rules and defended them and I've been fairly consistent about defending them all year. I've tried to figure out where I've gone wrong, but I can't seem to put my finger on it. One student hated me so much she left my class mid-year (the one that decided that she didn't like me from day one, though she started liking me more later, apparently not enough to not want to switch classes though). She had a problem with the fact that I had a binder system, and I didn't want her on the floor under my desk sticking gum under it on the first day of school. Another students seemed to hate me starting from the beginning of the year when we watched Apollo 13 with the sub and I was out, and he decided he couldn't watch it because it was against his religion, and since then he's been on a tirade against my subject going so far as to say atoms don't exist, and his attacks have become personal saying his respect for me is smaller than an atom (which apparently don't exist), among other things. Another student started hating me when he blew up because he didn't want to do group work and ever since, any time I ever ask that class to do any kind of assignment, or inform them of any test, or if I make even the slightest misspeak he responds with eye rolls and groans. And then there are the students who act like they are being tortured when I have the gall to ask them to stop being disruptive or hand out consequences for disruptions. My rules are simple: 1. When I call for attention and am speaking I need full attention. I don't want them to be writing or looking in other directions, because when they do that they often miss important instructions, and I have to repeat myself multiple times. If they don't give me all of the steps I am looking for, we practice outside of class. 2. I want phones put away in class. If they are out I will take them for the rest of the period or day. 3. I expect students to use my class-time wisely. If they are wasting it by being on their phones or horsing around, or doing things other than the tasks I assigned them, then I have them make up the time they are wasting after class or at lunch. I don't feel like I give much homework, and if students work hard, and turn in their assignments, I don't believe it's hard to pass my class, but I get students consistently not doing work and then complaining that I grade hard or they don't understand anything, when they decide to not listen to instruction in class, or complete work in class when it would really help them to understand it. When I go around to other classes, half the kids are on their phones and aren't focusing on work. The kids love these classes. They also love the classes that are easy to get A's in. I guess I shouldn't be surprised that they hate my class. I am getting to the point where I am actually beginning to "hate" certain students (particularly the one who personally attacks me). I hate feeling like I hate students, but I'm afraid I'm getting there, and this is a low point for me, that I didn't have problems with before at my old school. I definitely hate the qualities of some of my students: their laziness, their disrespect, the lack of any drive or ambition for their own success, their utter disregard for learning. They just want things handed to them, and they seem to resent me for expecting more out of them. I guess it's a good thing I'm leaving teaching, as I don't think I could take much more of this, and now that I'm getting to the point where I'm literally starting to hate kids. I was hoping I could leave on a good note and maybe come back, but I don't know what's wrong with this. Is it me? Is it high schoolers? Is it just freshmen? Is it just this town (I would never expect my 8th graders to have behaved this way once they moved onto HS)? This state? Sorry for the rant. I just feel in a dark place right now, and I'm tired, frustrated, and I feel used up and spent. Usually I'm able to get motivated again or feel better, but things aren't working right now.