I was feeling pretty good this last week. The previous week I felt okay, because I had determined to be more positive. This week, I had determined to 'like' my students (remind myself that I need to genuinely like my students because it does make a difference), and I was feeling like my old teacher self for a while until yesterday, where I don't know what happened. It was just an off-day. I felt like all of the kids were super snarky, rude, and not outright disrespectful, but I could tell they were probably muttering disrespectful things, mainly because they think I'm a terrible person for making them do work in school. Then in one of my favorite classes, one of the students (albeit one of the ones who has made it clear he is not a fan of me) put another student in a headlock and wouldn't stop even after I told him to let go. I was having such a good week that this totally threw me off kilter because it showed that this student truly didn't respect me or the rules in my classroom. I felt like I handled it very weakly in the moment: saying things like "this is unacceptable in my classroom, I will not tolerate it again" all the while the student is like "whatever", when I probably should have said something like "you have a referral, get out." In retrospect, I have been giving too much leeway to this class because I regard them as one of my better classes who is able to handle the expanded freedom, but I can see little by little they are starting to take advantage of it and me. I sat for a while after class wondering what I should have done or what I should do now. I settled on sending an email home (I tried calling, and no one answered) and writing a referral after the fact. I hate writing a referral without telling the student that I am doing so first, but they were already gone. This sudden feeling that I went from a strong teacher earlier in the week to one that is not respected by my students put me down in the dumps. Not to mention it's teacher appreciation week, and I don't think there has been much appreciation by anyone to any of us teachers (students, parents, or administrators -- tbf, the administrators did buy our 60+ staff about 15 tacos for a "Mexican Luncheon" that was completely gone by the time most of us got there). All my negativity resurfaced, and I feel like poop. Do you guys ever have a day that you just feel completely crushes you?