Last week I had kidney stones, which was bad enough. Then my dad who's health is not good was brought to the hospital with a blocked bowel, was about to go home and started to have heart problems, they shocked his heart. He was to go home today but he started to get fluid on his lungs and started to retain water. Just got a call and he is again having congestive heart failure and doesn't know where he is. Part of me wants to go and be with my mom and dad tomorrow, but here is the problem, tomorrow Is the first full day of school. I feel like I need to be there too. The other problem is I don' t think I want to be anywhere near a hospital. Five years ago tomorrow my first born daughter died at the babysitters of SIDS on the first full day of school. She would have been in kindergarten this year. This is also hard because I teach kindergarten myself. All these kids are my daughters age. I am just an emotional mess and don't know what to do. Oh, and my son starts preschool tomorrow.