My whole life, nothing has ever come easy. Growing up, I had few friends. I never had a date until I was 20. My sister and I were forced to fend for ourselves because my mother locked herself in her room when my parents divorced. I did find a husband (whom I love), but had trouble having children. I suffered through several miscarriages. We adopted, but will spend years in counselling working on attachment issues. I finally finished college, only to find it another struggle to find a teaching job. I have taught in four schools and been riffed at each one (though I have never had a bad evaluation). All where schools that were extremely difficult situations. I lost the sight in one eye due to stress and I lost a job because I had to leave before I lost the sight in the other eye. I have a husband that I never get to see because of his demanding job. As I stated, nothing has ever come easy for me. Heck, I can't even find pants long enough for my legs and shoes big enough for my feet. Now, here I am unemployed again and I have little hope left of finding a teaching job. I just keep asking God, what is your plan for me? Why have I had to endure so many trials in my life? (Sadly, I have only listed a very few of them). I guess that I have just about hit rock bottom. I know things could always be worse. *I know, shut up and quit feeling sorry for yourself. You have a husband that loves you and children you adore. Plus you have a home (albeit one that is falling down around you) to live in. Not to mention, you have a wonderful friend that would do anything for you. I just need prayers for direction in my life.