I try to be a good sport about this. I really do. Last year, at the beginning of the year someone made a comment on one of the very first days about how it was really important for people to not sit there and say "this isn't relevant to my content area", so hearing that I tried extra hard to smile and try to make something fit in any way I could. My district does TONS of pd. We have two extra contract hours a week (so my contract week is actually 42 hours) for after school pd. Every single time, it's about classroom teaching/gen ed. I am so tired of hearng, "Oh...you can just pick a grade level and listen in" every week for two hours! They often will pick some sort of curriculum thing and then plan out how they're going to revamp or improve their lessons based on whatever they're talking about (so they'll make a plan on how they're going to cover the remaining math topics for the next 6 weeks, for example). I often hear that it's important for the special ed teachers to know what's going on in the regular classrooms. I get that-however I still think it's unfair that the rest of the teachers in my building get two hours a week where they get to work on things for their classroom and get ideas/bounce strategies off of each other to improve their teaching while I "listen in to see what's going on in their classrooms." Our district policy forbids me from modifiying any classroom assignments anyway, and I am only supposed to teach to IEP goals, so it's not like I really even have an opportunity to help with anything going on in the regular classroom. I still have a lot to learn about special ed- yet there are no pd opportunities for me to improve my teaching or bounce strategies off of other people, or get help for work in my classroom. I can't imagne how much better I would be if I could just have the same opportunities as a gen ed teacher- constantly gettng new strategies and new ideas! Also, if it's so important for me to know what's going on in the regular classroom, why don't the gen ed teachers have to know what's going on in my classroom? Doesn't it go both ways- wouldn't it be helpful for them to know what kinds of things their students learn with me or what kinds of interventions/strategies we do? Why can't we ever cover topics about students with learning disabilities, for example? I am extra frustrated this week because we have an entire week of pd before school starts, 8-5 every day. The whole district is meeting in one place and they will split off into each grade level, where they will discuss their new curriculum and plan out their curriculum maps for the whole year for each subject. Those of us in the ESS department were really hoping that since there would be so many of us together (since it's the whole district) they'd have something seperate and relevant for us to do- particularly since we never get PD that's really for us. We just got an e-mail from our director saying yet again, that each of us will be assigned a grade level to "listen in on" so we know what's going on in the regular classrooms. So while I have mountains of my own paperwork and work to do, I have to "listen in" while a group of regular ed teachers get help and support planning out their entire year. On top of it all, I was assigned to 1st grade and I don't even have any 1st grade students, other than one through RtI who I see about once a week and I think will quickly be exited! Ahh! Sorry for the vent. I just felt like if I got it out (and maybe some of you can relate) it would help me not be so frustrated this whole week, as I certainly can't bring that attitude to work- where I will instead smile and think "I love my job...I love my job...my director is a moron but I love my kids and my school..." haha.