So earlier this year I opened myself up to my administration. My super was going to come into my room for my 2nd evaluation of the year and I asked him " My idea of an evaluation is to identify things for me to work on, but I also realize it is something that goes into my personal file that I want to look good. So, should I do a lesson I know I need to improve on or do something I know I'm good at?" My Super encouraged me to do something I could improve on... Yes, I got a bad evaluation. He basically told me that my classroom was "out of control" and that my classroom management was not conducive to student learning. Fine. I'm working on it. I don't expect to be a perfect teacher in my first year teaching... in fact I don't expect to be a perfect teacher in my 30th year teaching. HOWEVER, I feel as though I've been labeled as one of the worst teachers in school or something. I went to observe the classroom teacher next to me yesterday to see how her classroom environment was different than mine and how she was doing things. Guess what? ITS not very different from my own! I just allowed myself to get some criticism and let my admin really see what my classroom was like!!!! I seriously regret ever letting my admin in... I thought I was showing some maturity in asking for ways to improve but I feel as though it's labeled me "struggling" when I'm not as struggling as they think I am.