I have done so much better this summer in terms of staying positive and not getting obsessed about finding a job, but this week is really testing me. I've had those three interviews for public preschool, and was turned down for the first two despite very positive feedback. Actually amazing and effusive feedback from the second one, but they hired their sub. I had my third interview yesterday and it went well, but not as well as the others. I posted about this already so I won't repeat. But anyway, I am not feeling so sure about it, even though I had interviewed there last year for an LTS job and the principal told me that he really wanted to get me on his team someday. He didn't hire me for that job because they went with a previous sub. OK, whatever. I know talk is cheap. So last night I dreamed that I was ice skating on a pond, and the ice kept cracking. I was skating beautifully and making all sorts of twirls and spins, but the ice kept cracking. Is that symbolic or what? My dd woke up at 4 a.m. with an earache and after taking care of her, I laid awake for the next two hours thinking about all this stuff. I am starting to feel so discouraged. I've never had trouble finding a job before. I feel like nobody really wants a 46 year-old substitute with experience....I am like the old workhorse they will happily put into a classrooms as an LTS because they know they can just turn me loose and I'll do the job right for a very low salary (I have nine years of experience teaching before I stayed home to raise my children). On the other hand, I also know that I am limited by where I can apply due to my family and my husband's job. I also withdrew from a job search two years ago because I felt iffy about the place and later found out from someone on the committee that I was their top choice and they were going to offer it to me. If I had taken it, I would be employed right now. Sorry for the pity party, I am just blathering. I guess it's good the weekend is coming up and I should just take it off and do some other stuff. I hope you all are keeping your chins up!