I am so glad to hear you are feeling better. I know how things like this can eat away at your confidence and your happiness. With financial problems especially sometimes it seems like you are the only one having a crisis and everyone else is doing fine. That's really not the case, but it seems that way. I know that even when my kids athletic things come up, it seems so out of budget, and I wonder how all of the other parents are doing it. Sometimes I can barely afford to go out and buy groceries. Nobody who knows me would ever know it's this drastic. Somehow we always get by, and always make it. Just know that we are all thinking of you and wishing you well. Just take one day at a time, keep yourself on a semi-normal schedule that includes healthy food and a little exercise (ugh, I sound like a cornball). Finding balance really does help your emotional well being too. Last year I worked as an aid, and two weeks ago I was minding my own business driving to my brother in law's wedding and got a call on my cell phone asking me to teach this year! It was totally unexpected, but just what I needed. Things will turn around for you too, I just know it. Take care!