I am so sorry for this crazy back & forth posting but my thinking these days is so muddled that I have to ask you all for help. I love subbing but I am starting to hate the uncertainty of it all. I barely sub 60 days a year and that too mostly as an aide. And yet I love the teachers, the way things are taught in the district and the nobility of education. So I think I should get certified in some area so that I get at least better sub jobs and even a f/t job someday. But the thought of student debt at age 46 terrifies me and I am not sure if I am upto the hard work involved in studying. Then I think I should switch to editing/proofing which I used to do in my youth. But this field has few jobs and if I try really hard, I can only freelance. Now freelancing means working alone and I hate working alone. I keep thinking I should be in the classroom and guiding students and maybe aide subbing is better. So as a result of all this confused thinking, I now try to sub 4x/week (assuming I get a job) and I keep one day to visit a local newspaper to get proofing experience. I am not able to decide what I should do long-term. Thank you so much if you followed this post this far!!!! Anyone caught in a jam like this? If I was 25 and subbed in public schools, I'd be a LD consultant or a speech pathologist in a heartbeat.