I need to vent. This is my second year teaching. Last year was hell on earth at school and in my personal life. Not only was I going through an extremely difficult break up/divorce, but also I had the worst class you could imagine. My teammates said in 20 plus years of teaching, they had never had such bad behavior in their classes. I am usually conscientious and on top of my game. I've always been complimented on how well I work. Ive been working with kids my entire life and was told I was a perfect fit to teach middle school. With the divorce came a HUGE change in my personality. I dropped the ball and I was so overwhelmed with everything that I almost wasn't invited back for this year. This year, everyone has noted the huge improvement. However, I had a not so good first evaluation and it makes me scared that this is just a sign of another terrible year. I can fix the things that I need to improve on...but I don't know that I can handle another year of fear of losing my job. I'm just tired. This past year literally made me lose my gosh darned mind. I completely lost it. How can I get past this discouragement and know that I can do it? I have the knowledge, I just get so nervous when I'm being evaluated. I'm still learning how to be an organized and effective teacher. I've been trying so hard to be better, but all I ever feel is stupid, dumb, and incompetent. Does it EVER get better?