My story: I got a master's in public policy right after undergrad, and worked a lot of internships that didn't translate into jobs. That got frustrating. I was paying bills by tutoring, then I substitute taught and realized I could do real teaching. I pursued world language education. In 2014-2015, I was hired to teach Spanish part-time at a middle school in a wealthy area. I really had no idea what I was doing and I cobbled together things and the kids saw right through it and by the time I got the hang of anything, I had lost them. They had zero respect for me. I had ideas on what I'd do differently next year, but I didn't reapply to my part time job. So I didn't get rehired. My principal wouldn't have rehired me anyway though, she told me that although she could tell I worked my heart out, she thought teaching isn't the right field for me. I was a blubbering mess for two days. At the end of the year, my real evaluator went over what I did right and stressed the importance of improving classroom management. I got hired in another district and my evaluator told them that lesson planning and making assessments were my strengths, classroom management was my weakness. I got hired after I gave a good answer on how I'd handle disruptive students. I made procedures and I was better organized than I was last year. I had two formal classroom observations with a lot of positives, though yeah, it was noted that I'd benefit from stricter routines. I can pinpoint things I should have done differently at the beginning of the year (for one, I arranged the seating with tables rather than desks because I thought it would encourage collaborative work. I made a gamble and lost. And I should have come up with a Plan B for procedures that I couldn't keep up, and I should actually have eased up on my rules - by making super strict rules, I wasn't great at enforcing them, and being a little flexible would actually have benefited). I'd intended to fix these mistakes at the beginning of next year/over summer. And I would be on the lookout for classroom management trainings. As late as March, I was under the impression that I'd be working at my high school again in 2016-2017, and so was my head of department. In late April I was informed verbally (not in writing) that my classroom management is horrible and I need to improve. Two weeks later I got informed that I hadn't improved and hence I would not get recommended for contract renewal. I took two days to process this (and to cry a LOT and feel completely worthless) and then I drafted a letter of resignation, but I still wanted to talk to the principal to try to possibly get her to reconsider. She told me she didn't have time and that the school board meeting was that night and she was going to not recommend me and that if I were her daughter, she'd tell me to resign. I resigned and that got approved, but I didn't appreciate how I'd gotten that done by the skin of my teeth. A lot of my colleagues were surprised that I resigned. As far as students know, I'm coming back next year. But what do I do now? I thought I'd shown tremendous growth since 2014-2015. I'd hoped I would grow more at the same school of 2015-2016 in 2016-2017, but basically my growth was just me graduating from turds to maggots and was ultimately worthless. How does it look to future employers that I've not been invited back by two schools in a row? I'm feeling very lost right now. I could switch fields, but then what? I actually LIKE teaching, and besides, I worry that I'll somehow botch another field. I failed to get employed in public policy or international relations. I don't understand why I'm so far behind everybody else.