My father died Friday night. He took his last breath as I held his hand...it's been so very hard for me. His death wasn't unexpected, but it doesn't make it any easier to processes. I've had trouble sleeping and my appetite comes and goes. To make matters worse, my wedding is Saturday. Understandably, I've been incredibly sad. All the excitement I was feeling about the wedding has disappeared. I've been feeling very "out of it" and blank the last several days. How can I deal with such strong and mixed emotions?