Hello! I have a couple big problems and really need some advice. My biggest problem is lack of letters of recommendation. My cooperating teacher will not respond to any messages from me. At this point, it has been over a year. At first she was "too busy", then she had "problems of her own", now she just completely ignores me. Prior to student teaching, we were neighbors and friends. Our kids played soccer together. She was one of the people who convinced me to go back to school and get my certification. She asked me to student teach in her classroom after I spent many of my practicum hours with her. During student teaching, she was frequently not in the room, even showing up late (skipping the whole first hour prep and then some). When she was in the classroom, she spent her time in the back of the room working on her laptop or knitting. At one point, she left the school's starter pistol in the classroom, where a student found it, waved it around and fired it; she was not in the room at that time. The only times she would get up was to interrupt when I was struggling with classroom management. During those times, I was embarrassed because she would yell at the students and belittle them. I learned very little and was unprepared to have my own classroom (more on that in a bit). After I left, she was suspended by the district, and although she got to keep her job, she had to go to part time and switch schools. This is where she started saying she was too busy. She had recently gotten divorced and was constantly posting on Facebook about her "latest conquests" and vacations with several of these men, often inappropriately worded. I nicely kept reminding her about the letter and how hers was so important for me. While I was there, I thought things were going well, other than I thought she was taking advantage of me by leaving me alone to do her job. She would give advice and constructive criticism as well as let me know if she thought things went well. Flash forward to this fall. I received a call for an interview to teach AP physics at one of the wealthiest districts in the state. Because I still had no letters, the school called her as well as administration from the school. I did get the job, hired the first day of school. Like I stated before, I was not fully prepared for my own classroom, yet I started with 3 preps. One was a class proprietary to the school, not taught anywhere else. Another, I was the only teacher in the district teaching it, and the third there was a teacher at the other high school who taught it. It was a horrible experience where administration made some very unreasonable requests. I was never given a new teacher information packet or assigned a mentor as required for probationary teachers. I was told I would be provided training to teach AP classes, but it never happened, and I was specifically told not to go to new teacher trainings by the district and given busywork to do during those PDs. I was told to report on Saturdays and that I needed to miss my children's activities while I was planning since I was hired the first day and was constantly trying to get ahead in lesson planning for 3 classes. Eventually I was told to make everything PowerPoint presentations (difficult for physics) so that I could post on my website daily so kids did not have to take notes. I was told I could not tell parents if students were not completing assignments and that I was not to give below a B in any of the classes. I had to send home a daily email to parents letting them know what we did in class and what the homework was for the day. The final straw was a parent said she didn't think I should give a test, so administration told me to make it a "group test" and just for a participation grade. I did all that they asked. These were AP students going to college next year. The school was more worried about grades so their kids could get into top colleges than they were about learning. I know this is not what is best for students and I finally resigned mid year. At this point, I am applying to sub companies and looking for full time positions. I have no letters of recommendation, other than 2 from teachers I observed for a few weeks. I am a published research scientist with a masters in education, but I really fear that no letter from my CT and leaving my position mid year will prevent me from finding a new position. Any advice is really appreciated.