I am a first year teacher, teaching upper elementary. It is not the area that I had always imagined myself teaching, but as a first year teacher I was so focused on landing a teaching job I didn't think that it would make a huge difference the grade level. I wanted to get my foot in the door with a district, mistake 1. Things started off pretty good but there was not a lot of support offered to me, so I kind of went in blind, and looking back very naive. I was assigned a mentor, but it was made pretty clear that this was not something my mentor wanted, rather was assigned to do. As you can imagine I have not gotten a lot of support and it has lead to an uncomfortable partnership. We don't really plan together, but I am given information. I have a very talkative class and this has lead to a lot of blurting out that I am working on (it has gotten better) and my first formal observation was not great. I was observed again, and it went a lot better. There was still some off task behavior, but overall there was a lot of improvement. During my review I felt that there was only focus on the areas for improvement and not any acknowledgement on the areas I improved in. I am struggling with even enjoying teaching (which is so frustrating because like many I worked so hard to get my degree and enjoyed my student teaching so much). So much so, that I have considered not going back after the holiday break. I am going to be looking for a different position between now and break, but I just can't see myself staying the rest of the school year. I have asked for more trainings on the new curriculum and have never received any followup. I have a fairly long commute at it is starting to wear on me. I guess my question is, if I did decided to not come back how would I deal with that on my resume for future teaching jobs. I don't want it to be difficult to find another job because of this experience. I have learned so much but I hate that this is my first experience with teaching. I want so badly to love teaching but I am so unhappy with my current situation. I would love advise on what to do. Thanks.