I have one informal observation and a couple of walk throughs (and one contractually illegal eavesdropping observation ) and I have yet to recieve one word, ONE WORD, on what this new principal thinks about my performance. She has not even told me the names of the teachers she wanted me to observe, nor set up those observations! (I guess I will have to do that myself!) The contract says that I am supposed to be told by May 1st if I will be rehired and I they have to tell me so many days before hand if I will be rehired, and well, I don't see how I have time to make any more changes. I expect to be non-renewed and I have already decided that while it will be career suicide I will take the non-renewal and not resign, I need the unemployment. I have no choice. I was cleaning a cabinet tonight and found the folder of the things I did in student teaching that got me such high praise, its not really different than what I am doing now. I found the picks of those studnets and I just cried. Just two years ago I was finishing student teaching with such hope, such excitement that I had finally done what I had been planning my whole life. Today, I know that the end of that career that I wanted so much is almost over and it breaks my heart. I just have no hope anymore than I can do anything to fix this. I have tried so hard, my students at the new school like me, and they request to take my classes. They all think I am cool, I don't yell at them, I rarely get frustrated with them and I laugh with them, a lot. I tell them they are there to reach a goal and it is my job to help them, they like that. One student is trying so hard to pass for me, and herself. I have told another she failed my class this year, I won't let her leave this year having failed again. She knows I mean it (doesn't mean she always likes it!) I'm not giving up I will go down fighting, but I don't know what kind of fight this is, and I feel so unprepared.