I know I shouldn't complain about having a teaching job but the job I have now is horrible. I am in a room with behavioral disturbed kids. I don't have any help full-time so it's illegal and they keep dumping kids in my room and I am over my limit. They don't let the kids do anything (no computers or library) so it makes them even crazier. I even started to press charges on the kids. I've asked several times of what's going on with the help and there is never any answers. I know another teacher in a different building in the same situation and she just filed a grievance. I"m not sure if I should go direction because I heard admin will treat you bad after that happens.It's been very violent in my room. They refuse to send them to private schools (for their behaviors) where some of the students should be but they even said they don't want to give up that money to another school. Even when things were calm, I still wanted out of the district because it's ridiculous how much crap goes on there. I know that the grass may be greener in a better district but there is still grass...just different problems. But I know things are better in other districts. I've always applied for other jobs. I've had 2 really good interviews last year where I even made it to the last round but they gave it to the long term subs in both positions (which I understand but I'm bummed). There are jobs posted that I will apply to this weekend. There is a position I applied for last month and I hope I get called in for it. The amount of Joel Osteen I've been listening to it's crazy but sometimes it's good to hear. I even bought some of his books to help me change my negative mind set. People in my life have noticed how snappy I have gotten in the last two months. Does anyone have any encouraging words for me? Maybe a prayer. I honestly feel like I am at a breaking point. I was even shaking in bed the other day thinking about how bad it is. Thanks in advance.
Hi, I am so sorry that you are going through this. I think you have taken the right steps in applying for a different job and of course listening to positive messages. A Psalm that I like is 33. Read the whole thing. Saying a prayer for you. Praying for peace in you mind and heart. Stay distracted with music, friends, and reading. Don't let this bring you down. I hope this helps. ,
I think you should start with taking it higher if there is violence in the room because duty of care to all students is paramount. You should start documenting the incidents in class and lack of support When you ask for it. Thirdly you should follow your gut and start applying to new places. You shouldn't have to teach in a class where you aren't supported and you are stressing so much. If you are at your breaking point and no one seems to care, then that's your cue. Good luck!
