I know I shouldn't complain about having a teaching job but the job I have now is horrible. I am in a room with behavioral disturbed kids. I don't have any help full-time so it's illegal and they keep dumping kids in my room and I am over my limit. They don't let the kids do anything (no computers or library) so it makes them even crazier. I even started to press charges on the kids. I've asked several times of what's going on with the help and there is never any answers. I know another teacher in a different building in the same situation and she just filed a grievance. I"m not sure if I should go direction because I heard admin will treat you bad after that happens.It's been very violent in my room. They refuse to send them to private schools (for their behaviors) where some of the students should be but they even said they don't want to give up that money to another school. Even when things were calm, I still wanted out of the district because it's ridiculous how much crap goes on there. I know that the grass may be greener in a better district but there is still grass...just different problems. But I know things are better in other districts. I've always applied for other jobs. I've had 2 really good interviews last year where I even made it to the last round but they gave it to the long term subs in both positions (which I understand but I'm bummed). There are jobs posted that I will apply to this weekend. There is a position I applied for last month and I hope I get called in for it. The amount of Joel Osteen I've been listening to it's crazy but sometimes it's good to hear. I even bought some of his books to help me change my negative mind set. People in my life have noticed how snappy I have gotten in the last two months. Does anyone have any encouraging words for me? Maybe a prayer. I honestly feel like I am at a breaking point. I was even shaking in bed the other day thinking about how bad it is. Thanks in advance.