Today has been a craptacular day. It started to go bad when the counselor of my school told me that a senior I went to bat for and went out of my way to be sure she could work on her last credit so she could graduate this year (she won't be able to walk, but she knew that months ago) won't graduate and should stop fooling herself. I talked with the student and found out the conselor is wrong (we counted credits) but she was upset. Then in one class I had a student every single time I caught him doing something he should nto be doing blaming ME for it. It was the third day in a row, well too bad I don't trust him on the computer, the last time I didn't montior him well he was on soft core porn sites! He blames me if he isn't working etc. I kicked him out and told the assistant principal he can't come back without a parent confrence. GRRR, I have been disrespected by students all week long. And they tell me they aren't being disrespectful. (ex. while teaching, asking me if I have graded their papers yet, when I say I don't have it, they say "well I gave it to you so you lost it, you need to find it" with a rotten tone in their voice) GRRR. Then after school another student of mine that has issues at home told me her night school teacher told her to drop out of high school and hope for a GED, that she wouldn't graduate on time. Took me an hour to convince her she is capable as long as she doesn't lose faith in herself. Then I get home and found out I lost custody of my nephew when I missed the last court hearing (I was told it was this month, it was last month) the DHS worker lied and said I told her I didn't want anything to do with my nephew any more. I had no interest in taking him when he gets done in his treatment facility. SO NOT TRUE. I love him like he was my own, I never said that. I did agree to let nephew choose if that is what it took for him to get better, but I knew he said once he didn't want to come back to our house because he was mad at us. How can a DHS worker lie like that. My brothers lawyer was shocked, she knew we didn't say that. She is helping us file for guardianship. Well nephew called about a visit this weekend and I asked if he would for sure be able to go and let slip the court papers. He wasn't told. He beleived he was going to come back here. I broke his heart. He talked to his counselors there (not the one that lied) and then called me back. He was in tears when I was done as I told him how much I love him, and that I believed that he can make those neccessary changes in his life and be a great human being. I know he can. I just don't get it, why must some people be so big on power that they crush children? That is the same thing each of these adults did, they decide they know the kids better than the kids know themselves and then crush their hopes and dreams and don't give it a second thought. WHY???? Kids that have been through HE** don't need any more crap, they need HOPE. I am in the HOPE business. I teach psychology for a reason, I believe that if we believe deep down in our unconcious (like Freud says) we can do anything. We we don't think we can we short circut ourselves. I think we need to give kids hope every single day, they can be whatever they want. I know this because of what I was told as a kid. I was told I wasn't going to be anything when I grew up, I wasn't smart enough, I wasn't pretty enough. Kids in my high school told me I wasn't worth knowing and made me miserable every single day. I have a job I love, the job I wanted since the fifth grade, I have two almost three degrees, and I have the love of many and the respect of many more. I believed I could, and I did. If we don't teach our kids to hope and believe will they ever be able to do what I did?????? I am going to go cry now.......this kind of stuff breaks my heart because I know I cannot prevent it from happening.