I am a first year teacher and I have already resigned from my school district. I knew that at the end of student teaching, I didn't want teaching to be my career. I had this thought bottled up in the back of my mind, but I never reacted on it because I was so close to completing my degree. Here is my background..I was an engineering major, but decided to switch out of it in my first year. I found something closely related to that area, which was Technology Education..the new name for industrial arts. When I think about it now, I liked learning the content, but I didn't really enjoy the teaching parts. Don't get me wrong, I did enjoy teaching somewhat, especially the moments when a student completes a project or the light bulb comes on in their heads. But all in all, I figured out that I don't like the art of teaching groups of students in a classroom setting. Maybe it's just my personality, but I'm not at all thrilled at teaching students who don't want to be taught, and I can't deal with students who are defiant or misbehaving. I realized this at the end of student teaching, and I realize now that I only tolerated my experiences in the classroom because I knew that I would never see those kids after XX amount of days. The summer after I graduated, I tried to find a teaching job in Korea order to delay going out into the field of teaching here in the US. I pretty much told everybody that I wanted to do this in order to see that world, but I know now that this wasn't really the case. I was scared and anxious when I didn't get the position, and I took the first job that was offered to me. Now..a couple of weeks into the school year, I DEFINITELY realized that teaching is not for me. It's not in my personality. I thought I could stand being in front of a classroom all day, but in the end, I just couldn't see myself doing it as a career. And I hate myself for going through 4 years of school, and figuring out that I hated it at the end of student teaching. I was getting anxiety attacks every day and I finally broke down yesterday morning after talking to my family and close friends all weekend about "I just need to get through this year". I couldn't and I was at the point where I was about to become clinically depressed. So here I am now..luckily they have already interviewed for a replacement and have a couple of more on the line (fast eh?). Everyone at school is supportive of my decision, and I'm thankful that all the close people in my life also agree with me. My last day is hopefully the end of September and I feel a huge weight off my chest, I feel somewhat happier, but sad/scared at the same time. What will I do? I know that I am young (22 yrs old), but I feel that I failed myself. I just need a place to vent this all out with other teachers, and I hope that I can find words of encouragement or inspiration. I know I want to go back to school and find something that I truly enjoy, but I am afraid of what lies ahead.