I am a kindergarten teacher at at in inner city public school with a reputation of having an unsupportive, two - faced administrative team . Recently , I had to redo my whole schedule and redo the whole way I teach my lesson plans because the school is unhappy with the kids’s Reading scores . I am a new teacher and I didn’t really receive much training on how to do running records or the most effective way to teach guided reading or read data to guide instruction. Ive received low scores from my evalualator and she has given very little useful feedback or help for the most part . Until now, when i am greatly struggling and at a point where I am very stressed out and overwhelmed. I feel like they are helping me now when things are at a critical point but very little was done to prevent this from happening. My evaluator doesn’t like me for whatever reason and she does sneaky things behind my back. I’m just at a loss ... recently, I had a complete mental breakdown. I had to go the er for a panic attack and I’ve been put on anti - depressants and anti - anxiety meds and they have been making me sick as I’ve been adjusting to them . I just feel like everything is crashing down around me . My doctor said I had to take some time away from work because of the effect it is having on my health . I’ve already gone over my ten days I get for sick leave and I feel so depressed about leaving the kids . They miss me and I feel like I’m letting them down . I don’t know what is going to happen at the end of the year . I’m scared .