Due to past drama and animosity between the staff at my school and admin, I had a very stressful year. I feel more calm now during summer, but I only have 19 days until I go back. My stress is returning. I'm starting to have nightmares about going back, my stomach issues are returning, I'm so emotional. I have 2 more years left at this school before I can seek another job, due to a stipend I received during my graduate program. I have tried breathing exercises, fixing my diet, exercising more, reducing the hours I stay at school, reaching out to my team. I'm still stressed. I'm still panicked and having severe anxiety everytime I think about going back. I just need support and advice. I don't know if I can do this for 2 more years. I don't even know if my P will give a good recommendation when it is time to leave, she seems to loathe anyone who wishes to move on and makes the process hell.