just need to get my thoughts on paper...

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  1. Mr. Chandler

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    In 2007 I received a B.A. in elementary education from a
    university in Colorado. I immediately began looking for
    teaching jobs, both in-state and out-of-state, and landed
    one at a school district in Arizona. To make a long story
    short, I did not even last until Christmas. I was placed
    in a 6th grade classroom with 35 students that even the
    most experienced teacher would have some trouble with. I
    made a lot of mistakes and came across as "playing
    favorites" which got me in serious hot water with many of
    the parents (one who even called me every name in the book
    that she could think of during a conference) The stress
    literally almost killed me. I was having suicidal thoughts
    and almost developed a drinking problem. My marriage
    suffered badly, and the people renting my house back home
    almost wrecked it because they were remodeling it without
    my permission. Well, to make a long story short, they
    asked me to resign by Christmas and I did. I didn't give
    up (yet) and began looking again, finding a job two weeks
    later at a private school in a large city in the colder
    eastern U.S. I thought things would go better in this
    situation, but they did not. I only had 13 students but
    the class was FULL of BEHAVIOR PROBLEMS and I only made it
    a month there. When I got there, I was all gung-ho and was
    getting ready to go the local grocery store to buy some
    school supplies and promptly got into an accident that
    disabled my car...so here I am, a thousand miles away from
    home, no car, no wife or family, and a class full of
    behavior problems. I was out of teaching again that year
    by February. I STILL did not give up. I waited until March
    and began applying to different districts in my home state
    of Colorado once more. I landed a job in as an ESL teacher
    in a district in a mountainous part of Colorado. I THOUGHT
    that finally, I had found a job where I would be suitable
    for, and it kind of was. There were some positives to this
    experience, no question. One particular girl said her
    FIRST WORDS of english to me and I still, to this day, get
    a kick out of that. However, I was an outsider in this
    community and was continually (for the first time in my
    life) harrassed by law enforcement. Every thing that could
    have went wrong, went wrong. Last November things came to
    a head when I was arrested for domestic violence. My wife
    and I were living in a little holiday rambler trailer and
    I hit a little plywood table in frustration and it fell
    off its hinges and collapsed. I have LEANED on that table
    and have broke it. I was labeled a batterer and ALMOST
    lost my teaching job once again. I made the mistake of
    telling the police man that I was going to kill myself and
    was prompting placed in a suicide smock and kept to myself
    at the jail. However, a funny thing happened when I was in
    that jail cell. I realized that teaching was probably not
    for me. I've always been a spiritual person, so the first
    time in quite a while I started praying. I remembered how
    when I was sixteen I felt "called" to become a Christian
    minister, and so I basically bargained with God. I told
    God in my prayer: "All right God, if you get me out of
    this and get me my job back I promise you I will take
    steps to become a pastor. Just get my job back. And Lord,
    if you want me to be a pastor, you've got to work on me, I
    have a lot of baggage and I'm no where near ready." (I was
    drunk when I prayed this, btw) To make a long story short,
    I did eventually get a deferred judgment and was able to
    continue at my job. I did not finish the year; I only made
    it to March. However, the more I studied becoming a
    pastor, the less interested I was in being a teacher and
    by March I had already decided that I would not look for
    another teaching job at the end of the year. I was
    accepted into a nationally-recognized online bible college
    and seminary in May and let me tell you, I have enjoyed my
    classes ten times as much as I did my education classes! I
    guess the moral to my story is that having everything
    possible go wrong with me in education these past three
    years that maybe, possibly it wasn't meant for me to be a
    teacher, at least at the elementary or secondary level.
    Examine your motives and whether you are really meant to
    be a teacher. If you are and "you know that you know" then
    be patient, you will find something. Otherwise, it would
    be just like me attempting to fit a square board into a
    round peg. If it turns out teaching is not for you, know that I can empathize with you. As for me, I am going to continue being a
    prayer warrior, serve others, and studying my Bible to be
    the best pastor possible in the future! I've even been considering the possibility of getting an auctioneer's license as something to fall back on. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
     
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  3. Aliceacc

    Aliceacc Multitudinous

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    Nov 3, 2009

    Best wishes to you!

    Wow.. auctioneer and a pastor! Quite an unusual combination. But far stranger combinations have worked out for people.

    Again, good luck!
     
  4. McKennaL

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    That's quite a life. I wish you the best for your future.

    Having been through 12 step recovery, and worked with others going through that as well, I truly hope that you are going through the 12 steps on your road to a stronger life.

    Would you mind if i suggested a few books to you?

    The 12 Steps: A Spiritual Journey -- authored by a group who calls themselves "friends in recovery") This is a workbook type book that asks you DEEP questions thatyou consider - along with perfectly chosen Bible verses. THIS book was key to my recovery efforts. If you are a writer, as I am - and writing is a catharitic exercise to you - you will find this precious book a Godsend.

    Prayers for the 12 Steps and Meditations for the 12 Steps both, also, by "Friends in Recovery" - suppliments to the workbook- you don't NEED to have them, but they were very nice to have as well.

    and

    The Life Recovery Bible. I am sure you think...why do i need another Bible? Trust me...this will become your ONLY Bible. the footnotes and additional information that is in the margins of this Bible will absolutely rock your world. If you become a pastor someday- you will use it as a reference for many a counseling sessions.

    ***

    Let me leave you with a poem that I found that rocked me (at the beginning of my recovery) and jumped started my journey back (actually it's from The 12 Steps: A Spiritual Journey):

    BROKEN DREAMS

    As children bring their broken toys
    With tears for us to mend,
    I brought my broken dreams to God
    Because He was my friend.
    But then instead of leaving Him
    In peace to work alone,
    I hung around and tried to help
    With ways that were my own.

    At last I snatched them back and cried,
    "How could you be so slow"
    "My child," He said, "What could I do?
    You never would let go."


    God bless you on this journey.
     
  5. Kangaroo22

    Kangaroo22 Virtuoso

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    Good luck with your new path!
     
  6. Rebel1

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    Good luck on your journey!
    A lot of people will become better human beings because of you.
    You have chosen a GREATER :angel:path.
    Rebel1
     
  7. Mr. Chandler

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    Thank you all for your kind words...wow! I still come on here from time to time, and I definitely admire those who can do this job.
     
  8. Aliceacc

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    How are things going with you??
     
  9. Mr. Chandler

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    Things are going well...I'm just taking baby steps, but I have been enjoying my Bible classes still and am just now getting into studying Greek...thanks for asking!
     
  10. Tutor

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    Ah...as the wife of a minister...be forewarned that some of the most wicked people I've ever seen in action are very involved in church. My dh has spent a lot of time learning, on the job, how to deal with difficult people. Make sure you have a strong background in dealing with all types of people, have some counseling courses, and psychology. None of these my dh had in seminary but all are very critical to his success as a minister. PM if you'd like to talk more and best wishes to you.
     
  11. Mr. Chandler

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    Tutor,

    You are right. After I was burned so bad in education (partly my fault and partly things beyond my control) I thought that whatever career path that was next should be thoroughly investigated. I'll be in Seminary for a year this May and just from my own casual observations I know that you are right about difficult people being in the church. Thanks, and I might PM sometime in the next couple of weeks for sure.
     

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