I'm a first year teacher, and I teach 6th grade English. It's only the fourth week of school, and I already despise teaching. The kids are writing their first essay, and while I thought I was well-prepared w/ a power point of breaking the writing process down w/ my own examples, so I'm writing my story w/ them, they just aren't getting it. At all. I feel like I exude so much energy to teach, and when I'm finished, half of the hands go up for help b/c "they don't get it." I thought I had the patience, but I don't. Not only that, but I'm just not happy w/ the subject area. I've realized that just b/c I'm a decent writer doesn't mean I'll like to teach it. . .and I don't. It's boring. I feel for the kids. I try not to show it b/c I don't want them to feed off of my feelings, but it's just a long, boring, tedious process and subject to teach. Teaching isn't what I expected. I'm so over it. Most people are telling me that it's my first year, and I'll feel this way, it's natural, etc. Sorry but I just flat out don't want to do this. Teaching is just not for me. I want to find something else to do w/ my life. I just want to find a job where I'm HAPPY, and I can pay my bills. I feel stuck b/c you can't do much w/ an education degree BUT teach. Ugh.