I went into elementary education pumped to work with kids. I love kids, they make me laugh and have always made me feel carefree. That is, until I actually started teaching them. Not meaning to be boastful, but I have a lot of good character traits about me- I'm smart, energetic, fun, can make kids laugh, I'm a huge lover (of kids that is), athletic, musical, spontaneous, etc. But even with all the good things about me, I just don't think I'm cut out for this profession. I'm in my first year as a third grade teacher and I seriously don't think I want to keep going after my 2 year contract is up. I've been looking at other things that I can use my degree for, but haven't found anything I think would be enjoyable yet. I'm miserable at my job because I have to take my work home with me every stinking day. There's way too much behind the scenes crap to do, and I am not a paperwork type of person. I don't have the organizational skills to do this job, and I am not disciplined enough to keep a well managed classroom. Oh I know all the theories behind it all, but it's just not me. I am a pretty smooth operator in stressful times, but I have been driven to the brink of anxiety attacks when I have to finally plan my next week's lessons. Yeah, all the older teachers say it will get better because it did for them- but they've all got the necessary traits to be a good teacher- organization, consistency, etc. I just don't have it, and I'm looking for a job that isn't the same every day. Not to mention that the pay stinks. What else can I do besides working for a text book company? I just don't enjoy education. I have no passion for it anymore.