Eliza, I'm so sorry this has happened. I had a similiar thing happen to me in 1999-2000. Back than I was engaged to a coastie. I moved with him all the way to WA state in 1998. We picked a wedding date of Oct 1999. I flew home two weeks before the wedding. 10 days before the wedding he called and said he wasn't coming. I was devistated. I didn't know what to do. My mom made me call and tell all the guests it was canceled. I than (being stupid) got on a flight back to WA. My friend picked me up and took me home. My ex wasn't there at the time. He eventually came home and we worked things out. In June of 2000 I flew to visit a friend in Utah. GUess what when I got back he broke up with me yet again. Stupid me begged and cried for three months! I didn't have family out there. I did have a couple of friends but he was my life. My mom had enough and finally had my brother convince me to drive home. I packed up my cat and dog and drove from WA to Michigan by myself. In Michigan I picked up a friend and we continued on to Maine. We went to our friends wedding the weekend I arrived home (end of September). Two weeks later I went out for my birthday and met a guy with really nice teeth (haha). He was charming and cute. I went home and told my best friend about him. I found him again three weeks later and we have been together ever since and will be getting married next summer! Anyway the ex used to call all the time. Finally I told him that I was over him, wanted no contact with him and to get out of my life. It was the best thing I ever did! Things happen for a reason. I was suppose to meet my DF. So there may be a reason for why this has all happened. It can only make you stronger! Go out make some friends and have fun. I was 25 when I met DF and now I'm 32 (33 in Oct).