I'm a 7-12 math teacher at a small rural school. I have two classes that make my life a living hell. I'm trying to curb their behavior but the students dont budge. I've tried a multitude of strategies and none of them have worked. I have relatively no backing from administration and if i contact parents they end up just jumping down my throat. I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety ever since i got called into the superintendents office for something that was taken out of context and i got in trouble for it. I've missed a few days of school because i've been super miserable emotionally and mentally that i dread going back every day. I used to love going into my classroom but now i associate it with depressive emotions. multiple students of mine actually treat me worse than dirt. they dont listen, dont care what happens to them. i dont think i can take another semester of this punishment and i dont want to keep relying on the suicide hotline when i cant get in touch with my therapist. i dont have enough saved up to just quit and look for another job, and i dont think i can get unemployment even if i was fired. idk what to do.