I am 48 years old and I am in my first year teaching 1st grade. I have taught two other times, kinder, and third grade. In between I have subbed and worked outside education. ADD and anxiety cost me my first two teaching positions, and has now cost me a third. I will finish the year out, but I have already turned in my resignation to avoid a non-renewal. I am so discouraged and frustrated. I thought this is what I was meant to do with my life and I am being thwarted every time I try. Here are some of the main points: I cannot stay organized, I am constantly losing things like papers I am required to have for various things. I miss doing required things because I missed an email or did not look at the calendar. (Today I tried to put everything from the school calendar on my calendar.) When I make a list of things I need to do, it is generally much too long for me to work on in one night because of other things I must work on that (I think) are more pressing. I have trouble prioritizing. I have put in hours and hours on this job, but it hasn't helped. The results or consequence of not being organized are often the trigger for my anxiety. When I am working with my students, and I need to work with some individually because they are on different levels, I can't keep things straight in my head as I am walking around trying to help. I described it to my doctor as feeling like that I was in a mental fog. I think I am being overstimulated by all that is going on. Because of this it is very hard for me to see the number of students I need to see each day during writing workshop. I am horrible at giving kids grades and also horrible at having them do retakes on things that they didn't pass. I can only work so late at night on school stuff. If I stay up late to catch up, the lack of sleep increases my anxiety. On the other hand, sometimes if I get enough sleep, I have anxiety over not having some things done. I do take ADD meds, but they only go so far. Same for anxiety meds. I am at my wit's end. I worked so hard to get this job, and now this. I really don't know what I am going to do after this. Thanks for reading this. I am open to any suggestions. My heart is broken, and I am already feeling anxious about return to work tomorrow because we have been on spring break. This is supposed to be the best job in the world. I'm supposed to feel great going into work most days.