Hi, I am working at my first full-time teaching job in a Canadian high school. It is a temporary contract that started at the beginning of semester two, and goes until the end of the year. I teach in a high school in a well-to-do part of town. The kids are quite entitled and rude for the most part. One of my classes has way too many kids in it, including multiple students with learning difficulties. I have an extremely hard time controlling that class, and I dread going there every day. I am a joke to them. My other three classes aren't terrible, but I still feel very worn out by them. I end up crying or having a stomach ache or feel panicked and anxious either before or after school every day. I hate waking up in the morning, I have trouble falling asleep, I randomly start crying while working at home or driving, my eating patterns have fluctuated, I have been having weird digestion (I don't want to go into detail there...), and I feel depressed and anxious a lot of the time. I have been seeing a counselor about depression for about a year, and I just switched to a new one. My problem has definitely increased with this job. Also, some really terrible events have happened in my personal life in the last three weeks that are also contributing to the deterioration of my mental health (it was something bad enough that I started crying in the car on the way to school and in the vice principal's office, so they sent me home for the day). I feel that my students are suffering because of all of this. I have very little patience and I am having a hard time keeping up with marking and planning effective lessons. I have lessons planned every day but I know in my heart that they aren't as good as what the kids deserve (based on what we learned in teacher's school anyways). I feel like I am drowning and I want out. I have emailed my union to ask what the penalties are for leaving early, but I don't know if I should leave now. I feel like such a quitter, but I really hate every day of my life right now with the exception of weekends. I don't know how I'm going to make it, since I am not even half way through the semester now. What pushed me over the tipping point last night was a disgruntled email from a parent. I started crying and hyperventilating. I just can't take this anymore. Please let me know what you would do in my situation. I have zero interest in remaining in the teaching profession, so that is not a concern for me. Thank you.