I just can't handle it. I don't know how any parents can. Maybe I'm doing something wrong. Maybe I'm missing something. Here is a day in the life: 5:00 Wake up, get ready for work 6:00 Pump (I pump exclusively, 4 times a day) 6:40 Wake LO up and get ready for daycare 7:00 Leave the house 7:35 Get to work - 3 out of 5 mornings I have a meeting - Three days a week I have a 30 minute prep, two days a week I have a 60 minute prep. - I pump during my entire lunch hour, while eating lunch. 3:45 Work is done, pick LO up from daycare 4:30 Get home, play with my crabby baby, try to feed her and eat something myself. DH gets home around 5:00. 6:00 Put LO to bed (we switch off doing this) 6:30 Pump 7:00 Laundry, cleaning, check email, crash on the couch I'm usually asleep by about 8:30/9:00 I get up around 2am to pump, and I'm usually up for about 60-90 minutes. This is also when I bag up milk to freeze or take to daycare, switch laundry to the dryer, etc. For some reason I get a huge burst of energy during this time. I'm exhausted. I hate going from seeing my LO 12 hours a day for the past 6 months to just 2. I cry about it almost every day. Taking her to daycare breaks my heart. I'm so sick of my job already. I spend every single minute of my prep time working my butt off, and I still don't even have my lesson plans even close to being finished for the upcoming week. My team wants to meet during lunch time, so I'm going to facetime them on my iPad while I pump. My principal made it a rule that we had to personally call every parent in our class by today to check in and see how things were going. I haven't called one. When am I supposed to do this?!! We have to do running records and PALS assessments on all students by October 1st. I used to do this during recess time, but now that's when I pump. We're not supposed to use instructional time to do assessments. When am I supposed to get this all done?!! We just got a nasty email that we're printing too much, and we're going to get our printer taken away. I hate being treated like a naughty child. I'm a professional. Treat me like one. I'm just so done, and we've only been in school for 8 days. I used to be the teacher who came in at 7 am, stayed until 7 pm, and came in on weekends. I can't do that anymore. I don't want to do that anymore. I absolutely refuse to spend any time that I could be with my daughter at work, or on work-related tasks. I'm realizing that this is nearly impossible. For the first time in my career I'm working just 40 hours a week, and I'm not able to fulfill the duties of my job. I also dropped off of all committees and extra-duty tasks this year. I don't want to stay at work late, because that would be an entire day that I go without seeing my LO. That's not happening. So, how on earth does everyone do it? People keep saying, "It will get easier," but I don't want it to. I don't want it to be easier to see my baby just 2 hours a day. I just want to see her. Sorry for not posting forever (I've been lurking), and then coming on and whining. I'm hoping some of you will have advice for me. I can't do this for 172 more days.