Why is this job so difficult? This has got to be my 5th new teacher rant. I'm sorry if this gets redundant - I have no place else to vent. I know that sounds awful, but I have no friends or family who are teachers and I hate constantly sounding like I'm complaining to them. Some days are totally fine, but then other days are just really bad. Today isn't even a school day, but it's still really bad. DH works a lot and since I work a lot too, we hardly ever spend real time together. For the most part, he tries to support me in all my stress, but he doesn't know what to do and I guess I can't really blame him. He's got his own crap to take care of. I've had to turn on to survival mode, and I really hate the person it's made me become outside the classroom. I never was super social, but now I'm close to anti-social. I feel like I don't have time to work out to relieve stress either. I just feel stuck. We aren't even at the semester break mark yet, and this is so discouraging. I feel like it's been so long since I was myself, and I just want this year to be over with. I can't believe I'm not even half way. I don't want to be a quitter, and I don't really know what I could do if I left. I don't really want to leave teaching, as I honestly think that I could be good at it - I just don't know if I'm strong enough to make it through this year. I already feel burned out. I am so overwhelmed by my workload that I can't get the motivation to start it and end up falling even more behind which makes things all the more worse. I just don't know if it is worth it to put myself and my husband through this for another 5 months. Why waste 5 months of our lives going through this? It's hard on our relationship. Does it really get better? Do I have any options? I don't want to put my school in the position of trying to find a new teacher mid-year, and I don't want to ruin my chances of ever having a job (teaching or not). But I am so numb to everything now, and I hate the person I've recently become. Thanks for listening.