This is my first time ever posting on one of these websites and I am doing it because I am absolutely desperate for advice. This is my first year teaching and I am at a really good public school in the 1st grade. I came into this job excited but nervous to teach. At this point, I'm ready to quit. If I could leave at Christmas I would be the happiest person on the planet. BUT, I am going to stick it out until June. I don't know if I hate teaching because of the grade level, or if it is truly the profession I can't stand. I have so much guilt because I know that I am not doing the best job I should. I'm not trying hard enough and the truth is I'm not trying because I dislike what I am doing. I find myself saying "oh well, I'm not going to do this next year anyway." It's a horrible attitude to have but I really can't imagine what my life would be like if I did this forever. I can't sleep, I don't enjoy my life like I used to. I am sad ALL the time... basically depressed. I'm nervous all day at school and feel out of place despite the nice teachers I work with. I feel extremely stressed and a sense that my life is not my own anymore. I don't know what to do! Basically, I need advice. Is this how all first year teachers feel, or is this really not right for me? I think it goes without saying that I will NEVER teach 1st grade again, but should I give up the profession altogether? What about older grades (like middle school). I'm so confused. Any help would be wonderful. I also must say that I get a really excited feeling when I imagine myself doing something totally different next year with my life.... a new career. A part of me is scared of that though because teaching is all I know and I have a degree/masters in elementary education. PLEASE HELP!!