You guys already know me as the anxious, anxiety-ridden girl who's working as a second-year teacher. I cry as I write this to you, but I need your help now more than ever. In January, I found out one of my students from last year was murdered by gang violence. Just last week, I lost my best friend's mother to cancer. And over this weekend, my best friend, my beloved cat, passed away at 2 years old. I know you might be laughing, wondering why I'm heartbroken over a cat, but I can't stop crying. I have officially lost it. I broke down sobbing during lunch today. I wanted to self-harm, but I'm trying to get in touch with my therapist. What's making it worse is knowing that I have to work tomorrow. I'm an uncontracted long-term sub who should be offered a contract in June, but I feel like if I take off again, my chances at ever being contracted will be torpedoed. My stomach hurts. I feel like I want to throw up. I have been sobbing out loud that the neighbors can hear me. Should I just quit my job? Please help me. I'm falling apart.