I have had a tough year. In fact, last year was even harder. In the past, I had been a long-term sub but last year I got a new job in a new district (urban) as a special ed teacher. I was restraining daily, it just wasnt my cup of tea. I got a good reference from one of the P's (the other threatened to non-renew me, but I was planning on leaving anyway). This year, I am teaching elementary gen ed, and I love it, but it has been really hard. My mentor and team have not been very supportive or shown me how to do anything, and my P has given me needs improvement on doing some of the things that as a team, we do all do. I have worked so incredibly hard to be the best teacher I can be. I feel like I am meant to teach that grade level, and that content. It took me a while, but I get it now. I get how to have stronger management. I get how to execute lessons more clearly and have better pacing. I have learned a lot of things this year that I never, ever had to learn during student teaching. But they may not renew me. I got a letter of recommendation from the curriculum coordinator. It is not super strong, it just says I am reflective and collaborative (nothing about strong teaching skills) but it is something. I need to use something from this school and clearly cannot ask P. Maybe next year will be a fresh start for me somewhere else, if I can get something else. So many of you have reached out and reassured me that I can, and I think I will talk to that curriculum coordinator once I am further along in an interview process to be sure she would be willing to give a strong verbal reference if contacted. I want to stay a teacher. I will stay a teacher. Not to mention all the money I am in debt due to my schooling. I will not be an aide, nor a long-term sub, but a teacher. I cannot financially go back to that is all. Getting a new job somewhere else would be my third year in a row starting in a new school....but third time is the charm? What would you do if you had a so-so reference? How did you get a job when leaving a school on not-so-great terms/what was your reason for leaving on applications?