I am very, very sad. I feel like is the end of the world today. Today I had to leave the classroom because of what happened a day before in a different school. I had such a hard time keeping the classroom under control. Never been so disrespected in my life from students. I have been subbing since last year but have other teaching experiences from another country and 4 years in a childcare here. Yesterday 3-4 elementary students ignored my presence as a sub and refused to follow directions. One of them didn't work at all. One was talking out loud, cursing everybody. The other student said that's what she does. The teacher left me some notes about this student. While 2 others gave me other problems with chatting, wandering around and worked very little. I tried the best I could to get them engaged in activities, but it wasn't working. I sent one of the students to another teacher for awhile because he wasn't working at all. All he wanted to do was talk or play with others. Anyway, if these weren't enough, at the end of the day something happened. I was organizing teacher's table. Everybody else was packing up. Two students got into an accident. I didn't see what exactly happened but I think one of the student pushed another one, trying to get something out of his hands, and he got hurt. I saw that was bleeding a little. I thought it was just his lip, but turned out to be more serious. (I learned this today.) I sent the student who got hurt to the nurse, and was getting other students ready to leave the classroom. It's hard for us subs to have everything under control. We try our best but going to different schools everyday dismissal time is always challenging. So I got in big trouble because of what happened. The parent is very, very, very upset. I don't blame her. I have kids too. I know how it feels to have your children hurt. I feel so bad for that student. I hope he gets well soon. They are investigating, I can't go back to work right now, but I have very little hope that I will go back. They concern is that I am lacking classroom managment skills. That's what they said to me. Need an advice really bad. When I think what I have been through to learn English as fast as I could, to go back to school with no help while working full-time and having two little kids, I feel so hopeless right now and very sad. I just want to cry. I don't even know how this situation is going to affect my career. I don't know how I am going to find another job if they fire me. It has been hard for me to find a job even without this complicated situation. I love teaching. I love working with kids, and I don't know if I will be able to find a teaching postion one day.