WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD This is my first year teaching and my first year teaching kindergarten. I'm failing at this!! Today, I was trying to give an ELA test, but I couldn't get my kids to sit down and pay attention to anything I was saying. Then my principal walked in and I panicked. She whispered to me that I wasn't administering the test properly and suggested what I should do, so I changed it while she was there and the class was fine, but the minute she walked out, everything became chaotic again. Since I couldn't reign them in again, I just took up the tests and stopped completely and the chaos just kept going. Some students were hitting each other with pencils, some were chasing each other around the room, some were crawling under the tables, some were flipping the chairs, and some were jumping off the tables! My principal then came in and pulled one of my students out. I found out that she was looking at my class from the room next door to mine (we share a bathroom). A few minutes later, my principal called me into her office. She was saying the same thing that she's been saying "if I can't handle I should either quit or be fired" . She said that it's been six weeks and she still hasn't seen improvement, even with all the advice that I've been giving. She thinks that I don't want it bad enough, but I do, it's just that I'm so tired and stressed out that I never know where to start. I can't even process all my thoughts, and once my kids leave, I shut my brain down. She talked to me about everything that she saw that I wasn't doing. She even said that my appearance isn't up to par (which it isn't). She said that if she doesn't see improvement, it would be best for the kids that I choose to leave. She told me to go home this weekend (she sent me home early today) and think about what I really want to do and suggested that I see the human resources director and discuss my options. I just don't know what else to do. I'm so stressed and frazzled. I barely eat because my stomach keeps bothering me and I can't get any kind of sleep because I'm constantly worrying about work and my students. I also have this alt cert program to worry about. I have to keep paying for it and I have to teach for a year to become fully certified, and then I have a person evaluating me for that! I talked to my mom and of course she said don't quit because of this, but I just don't know what to do! Should I quit now because the stress is eating me and my teaching isn't effective, or should I stick it out and hope and pray that I get better. I know that I should improve, but I don't know what that means!! What did you do or what are you doing in your first year to get better and make this easier?!