Ever since I started teaching I have dealt with anxiety in the classroom. Being in front of a difficult group doesn't just annoy me, it makes me feel very anxious and uncomfortable. The worst thing is once I feel like this with a group it's very hard for me to "snap out of it". I start thinking about it night and day, about what I can do to make things better, about how I should stop thinking about it, etc. I get stuck in a horrible vicious circle and get more and more uncomfortable. It happened recently with students I have known for 2 years!! We came back after lockdown under special circumstances and assembled all the 8th graders in the same room (35 students). I got very anxious, uncomfortable, almost fell on my face at some point, was barely able to write on the board, my voice trembled. I repeated this the last few classes we gad together... They laughed and chatted non stop each time.... I will only see them once before summer. I'm thinking about showing them a funny movie (which I always do at the end of the year). I'm very affraid this vicious circle might start again next year when they are in 9th grade (I will teach them agai next year). How can I stop this?? When I am not anxious I do love teaching but this is messing up my career.