I'm a 7th/8th grade ELA teacher at a title I school. It's my first year teaching, I was hired last-second, and things have been chaotic ever since. I'm having severe classroom management issues. The students talk/shout/throw things/wander around the room non-stop, to the point where the quiet ones just put their heads down because they know we're not going to get anywhere with the lesson. They laugh or get angry when I "dare" tell them to stop talking while I'm talking. I've built friendly relationships with many of them, but it doesn't seem to change their behavior. (Though I guess laughing and saying sorry before going right back to what they were doing is an improvement over insulting me to my face.) I'm not certified to be a reading instructor, but I'm dealing with kids who read at a 3rd-4th grade level. Between my sloppy pacing and lack of control over the class, I worry I'm doing more harm than good. I'm up late every night planning lessons that are never good enough to hold their attention. I wake up nauseous with dread every morning, I'm breaking out in anxious hives, and I keep nodding off during the 45 minute drive home. The administration is very supportive, and I'm friendly with the other teachers, but I'm exhausted and moody and half-worried this job might literally kill me. And then last week, I got a call from my mentor teacher of last year, and the A+ school where I did my internship wants to know if I'd be willing to take a position there. I almost declined, but after three different people (non-teachers...) told me I was insane to even think about passing it up, I set up an interview. It shaves 20 minutes off my drive, starts an hour later, I'd be right across the hall from my mentor teacher, I'm only teaching one grade level, and the ELA department plans lessons as a team, whereas right now I'm floundering to do it all alone. It's a dream position, but I feel like a complete traitor to my current school and students. I don't know how to break the news to everyone if I go. I'll be the third teacher I know of to quit this year. How badly does it reflect on a new teacher who quits 3 months in to find a "better" school/students? How screwed would my kids be, having to deal with a new LA teacher in the second quarter of school when they're already so far behind? I feel sick thinking about leaving and staying.