Hi, I am a first year teacher (since august 30, 2010) and I have held on as long as I can. I have my bachelors for elementary education, did student teaching in a first grade class. Most experience with kids have been with 2-5 year olds. I was nervous about being offered a position teaching fourth grade but said I would try the challenge, and therefore accepted the job. However I am always stressed and anxious, since October. I've relapsed into depression, been in and out of work so sick leave is used up. I'm seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist and if I actually thought I could make it through to June I wouldn't be writing this post. I want to go back to my younger kids. I had a job on and off for the last 2 years while in school working with infants to five year olds, and I LOVED it. I want to be back there, or at least with that age group. I plan on contacting that job this week to see if they have any openings or sub positions. I just need an out, one that is as smooth as possible. My mothers concern is of course my benefits and what not. My concern is being sane and happy. I've held on for as long as I could. Going into the classroom like this doesn't help me, the students, their parents, or the rest of the staff. I know leaving now may mess me up with the county forever, but like I've said I have been down since October, wanted to end before 2011 even started, have so much going on with me, that I do not care. If for some reason in the future I want to return to this county then God will make a way. Right now I just want an out and I am ready to give my letter of resignation on Monday, February 7th as my two weeks notice. It is time for me to stop trying to please everyone, and carrying the wright of the world, and the thoughts and judgments of others in my mind and fix me. It's my life, I'm the one who has to live it, not anyone else. First off, THANKS for reading through my ranting. Secondly, any suggestions or helpful hints for me at this time?