Hey everyone, I'm really struggling with this one. I just had my first baby in June. My plan was to have my mom babysit him so I could go back to work full time in September. The problem is I'm feeling really guilty about leaving him. He'll be less than 3 months old when I go back and I work 45 minutes away. Plus, I'll be teaching full time this year and they have given me a whole new teaching assignment. My fear is that I won't get to see him as much as I'd like. And that he'll forget who I am (which my husband says is ridiculous). On the other hand, I absolutely love my job and the school I work at. This will only be my second year at this school, so I'm still considered a probationary teacher. That means there's no way I can take a year off to stay at home with my baby and come back the following year. They only allow tenured teachers to do that. I don't want to just up and quit and than have to go through the whole hiring process again. It took a lot of hard work and persistence to land this job and I'd hate to lose it and then have to go through the whole (exhausting) process again next summer. Thankfully, my husband's job is successful enough to where I don't HAVE to work. We could make ends meet if I chose to stay at home for a year. This makes it even more difficult. I have a few friends who don't have the option of staying at home with their new baby - they have to go back to work to make ends meet. I know only I can make this decision, but it's so difficult. For those of you who have children, what did you do and if you could do it over again, would you?