Just a vent... I am so frustrated!! I have been teaching in a Universal Pre-K for the past year because jobs are tight here. I am an "independent contract" which means although I am in a school I am not on tenure track, have zero benefits, and don't get paid nearly what a salaried teacher would make, plus no personal or paid sick days. I love my job and not to brag, but I'm good at it. One of my best friends just received a call yesterday from the district that she permanent subbed in for a period of time last year. They need a UPK teacher for September and she automatically got the job. She signed her contract today and is now on tenure track with starting salary of the district and benefits. Doing the same exact thing that I have been doing for a year. She is one of my very closest friends and we have known each other for well over 10 years. I am so very happy for her but at the same time I am so upset and frustrated that this opportunity just fell into her lap (I should mention that she got into the school district initially through a family member) and she is getting all of the perks that I so desperately need (healthcare!) and want (better money and job security of SOME sort) all while doing the same thing that I do, that I could do in that district, and could do well. I know so many people that I graduated with, that I am friends with, and that I work with now that are all searching for jobs. I feel like an awful person because anytime someone gets an interview or lands a job a part of me feels so awful that it's just another position slipping away in this already tough job market. It's frustrating me to no end and just disheartens me when I learn that a lot of these people are getting jobs through other people when somehow I cannot find any contacts! I hate hate hate feeling sorry for myself and I know that I am lucky to have what I have, but I can't help it- this is making me crazy. I can't exactly vent to my friends so I figured putting it into the cosmos here might help me feel better and get over this so I can go back to working on my September plans. Let's hope it works!