This is going to be more of a vent than anything. If anyone has any personal experiences or encouragement to add, please feel free but overall I'm just venting more than asking anything. I had a baby recently and have been home on leave. After an exhaustive search of daycares and our emotions, my husband and I have come to the decision that I will resign and stay home. I am both excited and terrified, happy and sad, and every other mix of emotions possible. I know that we are absolutely making the right decision but that doesn't make me any less scared. This is going to be a HUGE hit to our finances. Our lifestyle will have to change completely. We are used to buying whatever we want with no real thought to budget (within reason), taking lots of impromptu weekend vacations, etc. I know that money can't make you happy but I am worried that after living a reasonably comfortable lifestyle that not having money could very well make us unhappy. I am also a bit scared of losing myself so to speak. I am worried that I will miss adult interaction and become lonely at home. I do not live where I am originally from so I don't have a huge friend base. I have a handful of good friends but they all work during the day. I thought about joining a mommy and me class but those all cost money and will won't have disposable income to spend on that. Another fear I have is that I'm not going to be able to buy my daughter fun things. I have spent the last few months having a great time buying her fun toys, clothes, play gyms, etc. I know that she doesn't need them and won't miss them but I will. And that leads me to think of when she's older and can miss things. I worry that she'll resent me that she won't be able to have nice things because of my choice to stay home. I am also a bit worried about telling my principal. I hope he will understand and not be too upset that I'm leaving mid-year. I haven't quite decided what I want to say yet and the anticipation is really stressing me out! There are a million other thoughts and fears swirling around in my head but I'll leave it there so as not to bore anyone. Thank you for letting me vent.