I want to give the full context of what's happening so this will probably be a long post. I am in a very vulnerable state and am feeling really depressed. There are many things that I am not proud of and that I wouldn't normally do. I am feeling so far lost and I would appreciate if people could be sensitive to that. I am teaching in a title 1 school and early on I started to have feelings that this might not be the right fit. I tried to keep in mind that first-year teaching would be tough either way and I had to just make it through the year. In September I found out that my cousin was diagnosed with cancer. He went quickly and I lost him at the beginning of this month. I grew up with him and he was like a brother to me. I've been living with my boyfriend since last December. We were together 3 years. I told him that I needed to stay with my grandma for 2 weeks and he asked me if I ever thought about him when I made that decision. That really hurt. My cousin's last moments were at her house and I felt like I needed to be with her. I realized that I was in a toxic relationship and that he has very narcissistic tendencies. I've moved back home and have been trying to focus on work but I feel like I just don't care about anything anymore. I've been feeling so lost and unlike myself. I've been unprepared for work, unprofessional, and super reclusive. My aunt has also been having a really hard time with all of this. She raised me when my parents weren't around. I submitted my two week notice and am planning to stay with her for a while to recollect myself. My aunt has been really depressed and she has expressed that she is suicidal. This is why I want to be with her right now and what I let my principal know. I know it's fucked up. I'm breaking my contract. I'm leaving during the school year. I only have my preliminary credential and just graduated like a year ago. I feel like I screwed everything up but honestly this is what I feel is best for me right now. Down the line, am I basically just fucked as a teacher and no will ever hire me? Is my reputation is even salvageable? I appreciate you taking the time to read it entirely. I am grateful for any advice or perspective.