Hi, everybody. I know I've been a pain with these questions, but I am seriously feeling hopeless. Perhaps I'm just depressed and longing for spring break. I would appreciate any of the advice. I dread going to work every morning. I work at a high school that's about an hour away from home. The minute the bell rings at the end of the day, I jet outside. I'm a new teacher, alternate route. My first and only love is English literature. I had plans of getting into a PhD program and becoming a professor. Sadly, this dream went up in flames. I graduated from a rough grad school and couldn't get into a PhD program. Therefore, teaching was my backup plan. I have 3 different grade levels and they literally threw me in without training wheels. My mentor is a Spanish teacher in our school, and although she tries her best to help me, it's fruitless. Don't get me wrong; there are some days when I absolutely love my job. However, every single Monday is a struggle to get out of bed. I suffer from severe anxiety attacks and crying spells. I somehow wish that my car breaks down so I don't have to go to work. I don't want to spend the rest of my life this way. Does teaching get easier? Maybe I should just be a librarian. I feel so lost.