I am feeling really down about not being able to purchase things for my classroom this year. What triggered it is that I just used the last of my personal laminating sheets, and I really don't have the money to get more. I have $67 in my account until payday, which is 2 weeks away. (We get paid once a month.) Years ago, before our salaries were frozen, it was nothing for me to purchase lots of things weekly for the classroom. I used to have a prize box, and tons of materials for the kiddos to use. The salary freeze on top of medical bills from a 2 year long illness and surgery I had have made it really hard on my family. I had insurance, but still ended up owing over $15,000. I was still able to work during this time, so it's not that I went without a salary. I posted Friday about how we can't get anything for our department, and I am just feeling really blah today. I feel like I NEED to buy some things in order to be a good teacher. I especially feel this way in regards to science. I teach all subjects to my kids, and I remember the awesome experiments that I used to be able to do. When we were learning about the layers of the earth, I'd buy Snicker Bars and have them cut them open to see the layers. I used to love doing M&M Math, cutting fruit to show fractions, etc, etc. I really want to have the kids make volcanoes while they are studying land-forms next week, but I can't buy the stuff. Unfortunately, most of the parents have it worse than me, and they can't send stuff in either. I can't even buy pencils now. I REALLY CAN'T. If I do it means I'm taking money away from my family. I really feel bad. I feel down in the dumps today. I am steadily looking for jobs where I can be broke and not feel so bad about it.