My mom came home today super happy about my cousins fiancee. She got a public school job paying double what I currently make. I work at a private school and we are not paid much at all. If it wasn't for God's generous blessings in my life, I don't know how my husband and I have survived on what we make. I did have to get a second job last year, but now we are doing better. We have spending money and I can't complain. This year I will finally reach just a tad over the local poverty level. My family wasn't happy when I started at $16,000 a few years ago. As the years continued I told them I enjoyed the small community. I am now comfortable and afraid of "change." This is the first year that I didn't apply for any public school positions. HOwever, today when they told me she got the job I felt hurt. I felt like my parents thought I couldn't or hadnt tried hard enough. I pushed for interviews, but I have never received an interview. Granted I wasn't certified to teach in our state until two years ago. I haven't really "pushed" hard for the positions. Mainly because I am happy where I am at. It still hurts though! I can't explain how or what it was, but it was just how they some how told me. The emphasis on, well don't you have more schooling than she did? She got a job on her first try and right out of college!?!? I'm not complaining, I am blessed. Its more of a vent. I can't help but be hurt. The districts locally had a hiring freeze, so I didn't want to risk it. She got her blessing, I just feel "confused!?"