I'm not trying to start a depressing thread. I'm fully aware my summer break has only just begun, and I have a lot to look forward to in the coming weeks. But looming inside me is the feeling of dread when I think about returning for my 4th year this fall. I find this strange, because in the past I've not felt this way. I never felt ready to go back and start orientation, but setting up my room and getting my roster was always something I sorta looked forward to. Not this year, however. I've been on monster.com perusing the postings. Not for anything in particular, just seeing what's out there. I love the kids. I have a great admin. My school is pretty cool....but the politics! the hoops! the testing! the lack of funds! scraping by on 2 jobs just to pay the bills! Sometimes I wonder if this year will be my last, and it really saddens me. Several of my teacher friends left this year to do something else. I know several other teachers who want to leave but are too close to retirement to warrant it. Like me, they love teaching but hate all that comes with it. I wonder how many worthy teachers will leave because we can't get it 'right.'