This is my very first year of teaching, and it's been rough. All teachers tell me that this is all normal. However, I feel like I haven't been on my game at all this year. I went through a breakup last summer from a guy I was with for 5 years. It involved infidelity. I did seek professional help, which temporarily helped. I'm thankful it happened over the summer. Anyways, I've been feeling down a lot lately about the matter, as I heard my ex is moving away with the woman he is engaged to, the same woman he cheated on me with. The idea of going back to work tomorrow is gut wrenching. I got a reality check a few months ago when my kids told me I never laugh. I even had one kid tell me that I always have a dark cloud above me. I was never that person. I've always had a bubbly personality; I've always wanted to be a teacher. My heart is not in it at all this year. It's very upsetting because I thought landing a job after the breakup was the key to recovery and happiness for me. I thought about taking a LOA, but I need to keep busy. I have to admit though, I hate my job right now. When you were going through hardships, did it show at work? How do I keep a happy face? You'd think being around the kids would make me happy. I feel like this is one of the hardest jobs to have when undergoing personal things at home.