Hello, I am currently in a master's program for secondary education and working on obtaining my secondary teaching credential. I have done very well in my classes, but found extreme difficulties in one area that I thought would have been the easiest, and that are would be committing to my teaching observations. I was very excited to start my teaching observations, but unfortunately I have had the worst experience possible in all my observations. While I have absolutely no problem communicating with students I have found the teachers to be absolute nightmares. They insult my passion for education with laughter followed by remarks such as "You'll hate your life in a couple of years," or "You can't really help most of these students. They are a lost cause." This kind of language is disgusting coming from teachers especially considering the fact that they do not appreciate the importance of their jobs. I have always remained calm and respectful when around educators, but sometimes I find it difficult to keep my jaw from dropping after hearing some of the things that they had to say. Furthermore, there was a ridiculous amount of sexism and racism that I have come across as well. So many teachers spend their time talking trash behind each other's backs. What's worse is the fact that so few teachers even let me do observations because they think I am just going to disturb their class. Most of the time I get permission to observe a classroom from a principle and the teacher complies begrudgingly. I also have to practically hunt them down to email me their confirmation of completed observation. I mean, even if you want to give me a bad review I would still appreciate having one! I am getting my credential and degree through Phoenix, and so I have no physical contact with anyone. No one in my class(es) lives near me and only a few have had similar experiences, but not nearly to the extent that I have. I'm starting to think that there is just something wrong with me and maybe I have some sort of attitude problem that no one has ever told me about before? I'm always an extremely nice person around teachers and even give gift cards to teachers that cooperate with me. My experiences are starting to lead me to the belief that maybe I am not capable of being a teacher because teachers clearly do not respect me whatsoever. I feel like a complete failure, but I still dream of being in a classroom with students as a teacher. I'm just... very discouraged by what I have come across. I know not all teachers are like this, but I am either having extremely bad luck or there is seriously something wrong with me. How can I find out? I have tried to politely ask teachers if I did anything to offend them, but they just roll their eyes at me. I am scared to go out there and do more observations because the ridicule has reached to a point that I have social anxiety over it now.