Hey, everybody. Happy June! I hope this message reaches you all well. Since September 2017, I've been working at this inner-city / urban school. It has been a bit challenging, much more than my other school. The kids are ridiculously disrespectful and disruptive. We have a daycare attached to the school because 40% of the student population is pregnant. Many of the students drop out to "be on welfare, like mama." Very few, if any, students want to pursue higher education. It's like none of them want to be here. Many of my students cannot be controlled. The more you ask them to settle down, the louder they get. They challenge you every day. They never want to do their work, and you have to repeat instructions 5 times before they get the hint. I have had students at this school ask me how many sex partners I've had. I even had to suspend one student for asking me if I had "ever given a BJ to a man before." I'm not saying these things to complain. I'm just trying to give you a better understanding of how this school is. Anyway, my contract was renewed because my summative evaluation was high. I'm rated as an effective teacher. I accepted my renewal because although this is a terrible school, I do have some benefits: I have a 2-hour prep period, so I don't have to take work home; I can leave at 2:30 when the students leave; and of course, I have health insurance and am part of the union. I am planning to apply for a PhD for the Fall 2019 cycle. I was going to use 2018 to strengthen my grad school application. I accepted the renewal because even though the kids are tough, I feel that this school is a lot easier in some ways. I don't even know if that makes sense. Lol! But in truth, at my old school, I would have severe anxiety because I was a long-term sub, treated like garbage, and responsible for 5 preps at $120 a day. My mentor was a Spanish teacher, and I teach English. It was a nightmare. Even so, I might not stay in secondary education, if I get accepted into a 2019 program. So, it doesn't make sense to switch districts right now. At this school, although the kids are tough, I feel that this year has been a lot better than my old school. I leave my frustrations at work, and I'm not working myself to the bone like I was last year. But I'm having a hard day today, and I came into school with a little anxiety. I'm getting over someone, and I'm fasting for Ramadan, so maybe it's the caffeine withdrawal. A big part of me feels like I made a mistake in renewing my contract. Please advise.