Hello All, Sorry to be a complainer, but I just need to get some things off my chest! I really do not know what to do with my life. As we near the end of the school year, I find myself desperately wanting summer to get here even faster. This is my first year teaching and I can honestly say this has been the worst year of my entire life. Most of the boys in my class are miserable. Behavior wise, they just drive me up the wall. I'm absolutely exhausted every day and I DREAD every second that I have to be there. I find that weekends arent even relaxing because I spend all of Sunday depressed about being at school on Monday. Even though I know the year is coming to an end, its not coming fast enough! I just dont know how I am going to do this. I've made it this far so its ridiculous to feel this way, but I'm really out of steam here. Spring break is not for another 3 weeks and that just seems like an eternity at this point. Before Christmas I thought about quiting...I wanted to quit so bad but I knew I could never let myself do that. So here I am... quickly running out of steam and wondering if this is what I have for the rest of my life. I really dont even know if this is what I want to do anymore. I know this sounds terrible, but since I've been working I dont even want kids of my own anymore. I literally never want to have children! I've realized that I dont have patience like I thought I did. For next year I am hoping to teach a higher grade, but to be honest I'm not sure if teaching is even what I want to do. I don't feel passionate about it and I'm not sure if that is because I havent found the right grade level or if I really just don't like it. How do I know the difference? Anyway, what I am getting at is that I am miserable and the only reason I am rational right now is because I know the end is near. I just don't know what direction I need to take my life. I am so scared of trying teaching again next year and being miserable for another year of my life. I just couldn't take another year like this. However, because of the economy, I'm terrified of trying to find a new career when no one is hiring. Plus, what if I did leave teaching and then realize that I miss it, and its too late to go back to my school, etc. I just don't have a clue and I need advice!! I have also been seriously thinking about private school because I grew up in the private school system. Although I know parents are more annoying, the kids for the most part are much less of a behavior problem and I wouldnt have all the extra paper work and headache that public school brings. So that's another option I've been considering. Does anyone have ANY advice for me?? Where do I go from here? Should I suck up another year of teaching a different grade and risk still being miserable? Should I switch to private school?? What about trying another career while I'm still young? I don't want to ever have regrets in my life, but its hard to say and do when you can't see the future!! I would appreciate ANY advice ANYONE can give me. I'm desperate and utterly confused. Thanks in advance!